[Kilga loves Asuna]

I can't believe it. I can't believe how many people I know that are relishing in such sick pleasures. I've been posting on forums for a good 4.5 years, and it almost makes me want to quit.

How can I be like these people? Yes, I said it. THESE people. Oh no, am I sterotyping? God forbid. The banning of retards and emo fags or whatever the hell else goes on this particular breed of forum is morally wrong. Morally wrong. I'm entitled to hold on to my morals, right? Are you going to try to tell me I'm not allowed to have them? That I'm oppressing a freedom? Fuck you. Hitler oppressed. I'm voicing my opinion.

Do you have any idea what a user who has been insulted or banned goes through? Probably not. Oh, maybe you're book smart, but I seriously doubt you've had any - pardon the pun - hands-on experience. It stains a person. It doesn't just go away. The psychological effects are forever. And you're going to RELISH it? (Yes, I know it's only the internet, it's not real life, it's only portraying real life. Good Lord, that's the lamest argument I have ever heard.)

It's sick. I can't believe how sick society is. I watch anime and read books and play games to forget about this twisted website. But there's no escaping it.

Ban-happy mods kill innocence. Even if you try to justify bans, even if, in your mind, it's only some random retard thousands of miles away, it has no bearing on reality, why in the world would you want to be associated with one of those horrors on any level? Seriously, why would you even want such a stigma touching you? Aren't there enough diversions in life? Can't you get your kicks somewhere else?

Please.

I was an insulted and banned user.
I was only 17 when it started.

You want to know the damnedest thing? The nightmares never go away. Do you know what that's like? To always dream in nightmares? Probably not. My first memory is of hiding behind a freaking couch. Hiding from the site admin. I wasn't very good at hiding. He almost called me a fag and deleted my account before it stopped.

And the nightmares never go away.

Is this fuel for fantasy? Users are so innocent. They're so pure. Please explain bans to me, because I don't understand.

I don't get it. I, as a former insulted and banned user, don't understand. Will one of you please explain?

This is stupid and redundant. I'm finished. It's not like any of you are going to convince anyone either way. I'm so depressed. I have a two year old baby girl, and this is the world I'm raising her in? So when she's...I don't know, 8, is she fair game for "OMG ASL" and "PIX PLZ"? Is that how it works?

I was 17.

Please explain bans to me.